Have had times where I've struggled to accept how I feel I am deep inside.
Society and families have expectations, and seem to frown upon anything that 'goes against the norm'.
I'll be the first to admit the male side would be the easiest option, but deep down its not me.
It all started when I was around 12 years old. I would find myself sneaking into mum and dads room or my older sisters room to look through the wardrobes. To this day I don't know exactly what brought it on.
In my early teens when I'd be in the house alone I would rush to their rooms to try on anything I could find of mums or my sisters.
In the 90s I had to have an operation to remove a testicle and looking back I'm glad it happened. Sometimes I wish they had taken the other too.
On typical lads nights out I would eye up womengirls as guys do, but deep down I would be envious and jealous of them. Little did people know I didn't want to be WITH them, I actually wanted to BE them! Guys I was on the nights out with would egg me on to go and talk to the girls but I'd end up going to the bar to get drunk instead.
The feelings have only gotten stronger with each year to now knowing that the daily male persona is exactly just that, it's me going through the motions.
When I am the real me deep down, I feel more awake, happier, headaches disappear and it feels more natural now. I don't have to think about it. People who have seen that side of me have said I'm a girly girl, the way o look and my mannerisms, and although I haven't looked to be pigeon holed, that sits comfortable with me.
I have spoke to a GP in the past quite some years ago who said after the long chat that I sound like a heterosexual female in the wrong body. Recommended I see the specialists.
I have had a few appointments with them but I'll be honest and say I haven't actually gone through with one yet. Why? When I'm on my way there I feel I'm ok and I'm convinced I can leave it all behind, of course I realise the reality once I'm back at home and I've already either missed or cancelled the appointment. I hope I haven't burned my bridges too much with them as I know it's something I need to do. It's no longer a choice.
I was able to get my own place in 2014 and having the time on my own had just made things more apparent to me. As daunting as it is and scary I know I need to do something about it.
I'm not 'out' at the moment but I know that's something that will change in the future.
I've never been out as the real me and I don't know if it's something to do with my height, but for some reason I just think I would be 'clocked' straight away. I know this needs to change too.
What am I looking for? Hopefully increase my friends circle as its limited at the moment through nobody's fault. If I've had you on here before in a previous profile I do apologise for losing contact.
I do know a support network is vital for anybody undergoing whatever path they take.
In an ideal world of course every girls dream is to find that understanding caring guy too, so if that happens then it's a bonus!
At this point I should probably point out I hate my male parts and I don't feel any connections to them.
I'll add more to this as I go so if you've made it to this point give yourself a pat on the back, good for you for making it to this stage! Much brownie points for you and a gold star!
It's was lengthy I know but there isn't a limit on complete honesty.
Why try and be someone you're not as you'll only get found out sooner or later anyway.
Wanna know more? Well feel free to message me and say hello, we can chat about anything and everything like when a dog food is new and improved, who actually tasted it?
Luv n hugs,
Vicki xXx
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| Gender | Male | |
| Age | 46 | |
| Location | UK, Scotland: Stirlingshire, Stirling | |
| π Sexuality | Straight | |
| 10:14 pm Saturday, 4th May, 2024
Goodness, loved reading your profile! So many similarities! I totally admire your truth and how you tell it. I remember looking at girls/women and feeling that jealousy, and also virtually running to my sister's room when I was in and alone. You go lovely girl! There's too many hard choices and I've made mine, perhaps they were wrong but you seem to be taking a more authentic path. Wishing you all the love. Katy. |
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| 4:13 pm Saturday, 11th March, 2023
Absolutely stunning young lady very classy you would look good on my arm huni xxx |
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| 2:01 pm Sunday, 13th February, 2022
You are a totally gorgeous gal and I am here to chat with you as a genuine new friend xx ππ€©ππ |
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| 1:27 pm Wednesday, 16th December, 2020
A very moving introduction. You go girl, looking fab xxx |
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| 7:54 pm Tuesday, 22nd September, 2020
Lovely profile, lovely pic. Good luck in your journey x |
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| 12:31 pm Sunday, 31st May, 2020
Vicki you are a beautiful girl and good luck to you on your journey |
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| 12:53 am Friday, 25th August, 2017
Please get in touch Vicki I have sent you a pm too but not sure you can access it xx |
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| 5:21 pm Tuesday, 13th December, 2016
Love the dress, you look very sexy in it, and I would love to see you out of it mmmm |
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| 10:28 am Wednesday, 7th June, 2023
Best profile I've read on here. π |
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| 7:45 pm Tuesday, 16th May, 2023
Oh yeah love it honey xx ππ€©πππ |
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| 9:27 pm Tuesday, 14th February, 2023
STUNNING JUST STUNNING xxxΒ |
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| 3:53 am Saturday, 19th December, 2020
Let me cum in your tight bum please |
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| 3:53 am Saturday, 19th December, 2020
Let me cum in your tight bum please |
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| 12:17 pm Sunday, 24th May, 2020
Lovely and honest Vicky, can I help? |
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| 2:16 pm Wednesday, 9th May, 2018
Beautiful girl and would like to chat and see more |
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| 12:50 pm Thursday, 7th September, 2017
Beautiful pic and a lovely profile. |
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| 11:11 pm Tuesday, 13th December, 2016
i carnt read messages |
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| 4:46 pm Tuesday, 13th December, 2016
Be the person you know you are and be happy |
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| 11:45 am Wednesday, 13th September, 2023
very sexy xx |
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| 11:19 am Sunday, 6th June, 2021
Hiya gorgeous |
