My sex drive has always been huge. When I met the man I married I was still seeing another guy and still having sex with him. I was sleeping with each of them all night at times and it was really awkward making up all these reasons why I could not be available for one or the other when, in reality, I wanted both. When I met my husband I knew right away I wanted to marry him but didn’t know how to handle my other guy who I suddenly started seeing as a fuck buddy or friend with benefits. There was never any romance between him, my new friend, and me. It was fucking pure and simple and I really liked fucking him. I would get so excited knowing I was going to see him that I had to use panty liners and even had to change them out sometimes. He fucked me and I loved it. My husband, Jake was different. He made love to me. He always made me feel special and he still does. Knowing I was going to see him made me happy, excited, and warm all over. Seeing my friend made my vagina quiver with anticipation. I knew I would marry Jake so I thought I would have to stop seeing my friend but had no idea how I was going to do it. I wanted both of them. I knew it was selfish but it was such a need I had to have them. I loved one and lusted for the other. I decided I had to come clean and talk to Jake about it and let the chips fall where they may. I decided to tell him while we were out at our favorite restaurant. An Italian family place we went to at least one time a week. I was terrified that this might be the last time I ever saw the guy I wanted for my husband but I felt like I had to be honest and see what happened. I didn’t want to lose him and was prepared to give up my ways for him, but I had to be honest. We went to our usual place and I waited until we finished our meal before I told him. I was so scared! When I plucked up the courage I said to him that I had something to tell him and I told him I did not want to lose him but I did not want any secrets between us. When I told him about my friend, he asked me if I was talking about the guy with black hair about his height and who drove an older BMW. I was shocked and said that him. He was not surprised at all. He had seen him a few times and left so as not to cause a scene or embarrass me. He had even seen him and me standing in front of my (upstairs) bedroom window when we were both naked. I remembered the night that happened because he deliberately stood there joking that my new guy might be out there watching. I was really shocked to learn he was. I apologized and told him I would stop seeing my friend and blurted out that I wanted to marry him - Jake - but he surprised me when he asked what the relationship was between me and my friend. I explained as best I could that he was sex pure and simple and that I liked him but did not love him. Jake asked me if I wanted to keep seeing him and I told him honestly that I loved the sex with him, that I had been seeing him regularly and for how long. He asked me if I could handle him and my friend and I said I could but understood perfectly if it wasn’t okay with him. Jake surprised me by telling me he knew every time I had been with him because, he said, “Your vagina feels really different after you have been with him and you have a sex smell when you come to bed.” I did not really believe him until he told me which nights and days and he was right every time. My husband, Jake, had always loved to go down on me and I tried to stop him a couple of times knowing what was still inside me but he always got his way and would keep going until I reached an orgasm. He said that I smelled and tasted different after sex with my friend and admitted it turned him on. I kept seeing him for a couple of years and, after he and I split, I tried out other men until I found a new special friend, Aaron. I still see him pretty regularly and met a guy at a corporate conference in Portland last year before the pandemic. My husband was with me on that trip and waited in an adjoining room when I took the Portland guy to bed. Aaron has a very thick penis that feels very different to Lucas’ and he produces a crazy amount of sperm that is quite thick and seems to stay longer than most other men’s sperm. What is really crazy is that I have actually cum anticipating having sex with my husband after doing it with Aaron. One man I met, was bi and married and wanted a threesome after we had seen each other a few times. I asked my husband who is also bisexual and he agreed. He was very eager to do it and I found it exciting to have both men at the same time. We have not done that since as finding the right guy for something like that is really hard. Different people tell their stories in different ways and do it for different reasons. I do it because I just love sex and get very turned on by having sex with different men. I love that it’s taboo and especially love the first time even if it doesn’t work out well. My husband has been involved a few times in threesomes and he loves to watch me sucking other men’s cocks but really loves to see men fuck me. We have been together for over twenty years and and there have been men that cum and go, but my husband and I are together and we sometimes wonder what our conversations will be like when we grow old together!
